Maybe all I can say is sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you, or anyone,
or to make anyone get mad, or provoked.
I clearly stated that it was me who chose to put myself in such situation.
Yes stupid, idiotic, stubborn, childish, irrational, denial,
are all the words you can use to describe me.
You all can scold me.
Since it was me who started the whole thing,
I can totally understand your anger.
I know whatever I do, it's useless.
No I'm not trying to be the good person,
because I know I'll never be.
But yet it's even more impossible for me to
take the role as a bad person.
My every motive was out of sincere,
and I think you should know better that it is not hard for me
to make you hate me.
You know I'm capable of much crazier things than this.
But alas, words spoken, none can be taken back.
I did not write my feelings out just to make you look bad.
Have you ever thought,
like how can I ever come up with
such a complicated story like that, alone?
Even if there is this SOMEONE,
who knew the story behind my story,
I know this SOMEONE couldn't help me to explain.
It's not a two-sided-face thingy.
I really wondered how did the rest of you,
know that it's me who's writing this blog?
No name, no pictures. I was so careful.
Or is it the song's lyrics that gave me away...?
You know why I was careful about my privacy...?
This was suppose to be my own personal space
for understandings and random exclamations.
How did it even ended up become a place
where I used to say about all your bad things...?
Even if it IS, I think it's just the recent posts.
What about all the other posts that I've used
my heart, my soul and every cells in me to write...?
I just don't want you to see me acting like SHYT
because it was ME the one who put myself in such situation!
I don't want people to see my weakness
after all I've tried so hard to fake out the strong side of me...
You know when I called you,
'cause you're sad and moody about my page,
you have NO idea how sad I was...!
For it was never meant to be that way!
I don't want you to read my heart....
Please... I don't want you to know I'm sad...
I'm sorry for everything...
即使你们没有明显的表明是在骂我，
请允许我自己对号入座...
我知道故事不能只听一边... 对不起...
是我不好...
or to make anyone get mad, or provoked.
I clearly stated that it was me who chose to put myself in such situation.
Yes stupid, idiotic, stubborn, childish, irrational, denial,
are all the words you can use to describe me.
You all can scold me.
Since it was me who started the whole thing,
I can totally understand your anger.
I know whatever I do, it's useless.
No I'm not trying to be the good person,
because I know I'll never be.
But yet it's even more impossible for me to
take the role as a bad person.
My every motive was out of sincere,
and I think you should know better that it is not hard for me
to make you hate me.
You know I'm capable of much crazier things than this.
But alas, words spoken, none can be taken back.
I did not write my feelings out just to make you look bad.
Have you ever thought,
like how can I ever come up with
such a complicated story like that, alone?
Even if there is this SOMEONE,
who knew the story behind my story,
I know this SOMEONE couldn't help me to explain.
It's not a two-sided-face thingy.
I really wondered how did the rest of you,
know that it's me who's writing this blog?
No name, no pictures. I was so careful.
Or is it the song's lyrics that gave me away...?
You know why I was careful about my privacy...?
This was suppose to be my own personal space
for understandings and random exclamations.
How did it even ended up become a place
where I used to say about all your bad things...?
Even if it IS, I think it's just the recent posts.
What about all the other posts that I've used
my heart, my soul and every cells in me to write...?
I just don't want you to see me acting like SHYT
because it was ME the one who put myself in such situation!
I don't want people to see my weakness
after all I've tried so hard to fake out the strong side of me...
You know when I called you,
'cause you're sad and moody about my page,
you have NO idea how sad I was...!
For it was never meant to be that way!
I don't want you to read my heart....
Please... I don't want you to know I'm sad...
I'm sorry for everything...
即使你们没有明显的表明是在骂我，
请允许我自己对号入座...
我知道故事不能只听一边... 对不起...
是我不好...
ᵇᵅᵇᵞ ♥
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