我不EMO~

忙碌=充实？
最近好忙... 但是是忙写作！>_<
最近写的东西都好受欢迎~
给我动力好大~ xD
或许是真心写的关系...
很多事，一下子发泄到完出来，感觉真的很解脱~

考试要到了，少过一个月！
我却没真正碰到书~ >_<
想说完蛋了~ 啊！xD

我依然会好好过~
依然祝福你们~
爱你们！哈哈

对了，现在公开我的blog应该没关系吧？

因为之前敏感的post已经藏起来了！>_<

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对，是我不好...

Maybe all I can say is sorry.

I didn't mean to hurt you, or anyone,
or to make anyone get mad, or provoked.

I clearly stated that it was me who chose to put myself in such situation.
Yes stupid, idiotic, stubborn, childish, irrational, denial,
are all the words you can use to describe me.
You all can scold me.
Since it was me who started the whole thing,
I can totally understand your anger.

I know whatever I do, it's useless.
No I'm not trying to be the good person,
because I know I'll never be.
But yet it's even more impossible for me to
take the role as a bad person.
My every motive was out of sincere,
and I think you should know better that it is not hard for me
to make you hate me.
You know I'm capable of much crazier things than this.

But alas, words spoken, none can be taken back.
I did not write my feelings out just to make you look bad.
Have you ever thought,
like how can I ever come up with
such a complicated story like that, alone?
Even if there is this SOMEONE,
who knew the story behind my story,
I know this SOMEONE couldn't help me to explain.

It's not a two-sided-face thingy.
I really wondered how did the rest of you,
know that it's me who's writing this blog?
No name, no pictures. I was so careful.
Or is it the song's lyrics that gave me away...?

You know why I was careful about my privacy...?
This was suppose to be my own personal space
for understandings and random exclamations.
How did it even ended up become a place
where I used to say about all your bad things...?
Even if it IS, I think it's just the recent posts.
What about all the other posts that I've used
my heart, my soul and every cells in me to write...?

I just don't want you to see me acting like SHYT
because it was ME the one who put myself in such situation!
I don't want people to see my weakness
after all I've tried so hard to fake out the strong side of me...

You know when I called you,
'cause you're sad and moody about my page,
you have NO idea how sad I was...!
For it was never meant to be that way!
I don't want you to read my heart....
Please... I don't want you to know I'm sad...

I'm sorry for everything...
 
即使你们没有明显的表明是在骂我，
请允许我自己对号入座...
我知道故事不能只听一边... 对不起...
是我不好...

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时间不停的在走，我还在原地...

人家说你一脚踏两船，

我还帮你说"没有，那时我们已经分手了..."

没有人看好你们会走很久，

我连自己也安慰自己说"他这次或许会不一样了啦..."

世界上，有谁会连自己的情敌都对她好？？

可笑的，世界上或许最笨的，

就是我了...

我对你的好，

真的不只是一天两天而已...

我很用心，很认真，很付出，很牺牲，很忍耐...

然而，我也没有自己想象中那样坚强...

想不到，现在，槟城去到哪里，依然都有你的影子...

好恐怖.... 霸占着我的脑海...

或许和你在一起做的事太多了...

全部都还深深的刻在脑海里...

回忆哪里都是...

原来我会空虚....
我不习惯...
公私的感觉无法用字来形容....

我做我应该做的事...
多想去找你也没有去找你...
不乱回你暧昧的信息...
和你讲话用词小心...
不太过关心...
不常联络你...
不跟你太好...
不花心思在你身上...

可笑的是，其实全部或许只因为
我有把她放在眼里....
我很努力了....
你会看到吗...？

我一直和身边的人说...

很快的，又一年了....

事情真的一转眼什么都不一样了....

悲啊...

时间不停的在走，我还在原地...

我其实很希望，
我现在所需的，
不是那段用来忘记你的[时间].....

所以你要幸福...
所以你要快乐...
所以你要对人家负责人...
所以你要对人家好好...

不要让这些眼泪白流....

ᵇᵅᵇᵞ ♥

无法逃脱...

I ran. I hide. I lied. I deny.

I did everything I could...

Looks like it's harder than I thought....

I'm such a BIG failure...

How in the world will little things trigger my mood so much???

I know I'm fragile.

I know I'm weak.

I know I'm stupid.

I know I'm blind.

But THIS???

This is TOO much!

I make ME wanna kill MYSELF... zzz

And today is such a LOVELY day!

With LOVELY date!

Argh...!!! NOOB!!!

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Abandon

[Guys~ Since I got facebook things and stuff~

I less write in this blog d~]

My MV T^T

haiz why so many things to do...!!

after I create and settle the background music,

I still need convert it from wav to mp3 ==

then still need to import and edit audio...

and put pictures or videos to make it into an MV~!!

argh... ==

I'm tired... =[

add oil haha >_<"

Music saves MY soul...

Piano... Drums...

Damn I love music...

I've been singing alot...

Creating an MV soon...

Happy happy... =]

I'm not lonely...

Just broken and needed to be fixed...

These days no time to write a lot.... =[

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