Unexplainable feelings...

today, I lost my phone...

technically, it's my ex's phone... =[

EMO much!!

the whole day i was sooooo down!!!

I think I dropped it in the bus. . . . . . . T^T

soooooooooooooo sorry...

I tried everything I could to get it back... But...

I have no money now but will pay you back...

worry what your brother will say...

I already told my dad...

it's the first time I lost a phone...

so sad so emo so worried so guilty so frustrated...

but when I'm sad, I can't even get somebody to accompany me and know my feelings...

well, in fact he comforted me back zzz

which is so wrong ==

but... thanks a lot...

you're more than a great friend... =]

May God bless the person who has his phone.

[oversea]

我，失落

越来越淡...
越来越远...
捉住？还是任凭？

害怕...
矛盾...
慌张...

容易放弃的我，
撑得住多久？


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我，怎么了

笑答比以前多了很多...
泪水比以前少了很多...
生活也多了很多色彩...

但我是开心的吗？
为什么总觉得缺少些什么...


不管是什么，
我觉得我不是缺少爱情...
似乎有点麻木，恐惧...



我，是怎么了...



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一个人

一个人，

想喊...
想跑...
想躲...
想静静...
想乱骂...
想唱歌...
想呐喊...
想讲话...
想失踪...

一个人，
心痛...

好想静静的，
谁也不理...
就一个人哭...

等我哭累了，

我就会回来了....

♥ вавч

关于 ♡ 你

啊，想起你的时候，

怎么每次脑袋都是空白的~ ><

明明就有很多东西要跟你讲的~

很不公平哦...

我这么久了才开始写些你的东西...

但是真的很突然咯！

我并没有打算这么快就谈恋爱呃~

都是你的错啦！

可是和你在一起，

真的很不一样...

很开心... ツ

讨厌啦~！

自己怎么会一个人傻笑？！

我明明就不是一个很容易爱上别人的人嘛~

我为什么会这样啦~ >O<

Unexpected-Sweetness

♥ вавч

乜谁

Hey V,

STOP thinking that I still like you!
STOP living in your own world!
STOP making stupid assumptions!

Who wants to stalk you?
Who wants to check your stuff?
Who wants to poke around your things?
Who wants to have anything to do with you anyway?

PUH-lease~
Wake up lar...
You're so dead long gone ago.

I didn't even touch your blog since that day I said I don't want to.
At least few months already!
I told you I won't be with you already.
Your messages I already deleted all from my phone and I don't even remember the date.
I'm not talking to you anymore since dunno when also, even if you reply.
And since that day, I didn't even click into your stupid profile already okay!
It just happens that your stupid status showed up in my newsfeed that day.

I can't bear being assumed wrongly.
And I can't believe you are still YOU!
Living in your own world.
In case you didn't noticed, I'm much more capable living without you.
Life with you was so stressful and sinful.

People around me are way better than you are.
And yes, I didn't miss you.

Baby

My 20th Birthday~

◌☺╬ﻬнαρı ßıяτнđαчﻬ╬☺◌


I had my BEST birthday EVER~! =D
my friends all cooked for me~ ><
set a special table for me~
cleaned up the plates for me~
wished me~ prayed for me~
and my family bought me cheese cake~
even my aunt and her family came~ =D
they all sing songs for me~ xD
they gave me presents~


I got 4 cakes, a purse, a bracelet, cards, a sunglasses which is very ridiculous xD
a crystal pink teddy from FAR FAR LAND =P
a birthday gift from MYSELF =D
and of course many many wishes~ xD


I love you guys~
all of you~ =D


even though I cried on my birthday,
but I had the greatest gift of all~


◌☺╬ﻬнαρı ßıяτнđαчﻬ╬☺◌

♥ вавч

Dilemma

I'm having dilemma... =[
Too sudden.
Too fast.
Out of control.
Unexpected.
Falling in.
SOS.
Help...

♥ вавч

其实我不复杂...

对不起，不是我变了...
只是我做了决定了...

对不起，不是我骄傲...
只是我有我的原则...

对不起，不是我幼稚...
只是我的想法不同...

对不起，不是我霸道...
只是我是为了你好...

对不起，不是我愚蠢...
只是我宁愿牺牲点...

对不起，不是我恨你...
只是我的心不爱你...

对不起，不是我复杂...
只是我不想联络你...

两个月...
就两个月...
让这两个月，
改变两个人...

♥ вавч

An Amazing day

Today, I spoke to a prostitute, a drug addict, and a lady-man.
(You know, a man dressed as a lady)
We were having an activity about caring these people.
So, me and some friends went and I chatted with them.

I talked to this prostitute,
who didn't have dinner because she doesn't have money...
I felt sad because I had nothing to offer her to eat...
I gave her my Mentos == (Cola flavoured)
It was the last one, so...
The lady-man (whom also a drug addict) shared the Mentos with her...

I talked a lot with that prostitute.
I even asked many things like how long had she been doing this...
And how are the guys that come along...
And how does the price thing works...

There were police patrolling around few times.
But they took BRIBE and went away!

It's sad to see our country like that...

And this MORNING.
I cried... AGAIN. ==
God spoke to me...
He spoke to me a lot of times before but I don't really believed it.
But THIS TIME, I'm SURE...
I have a wish deep inside my heart...
God is going to answer that...

God listens to every prayers...
The spoken ones, the silence ones,
and even the ones that are written in the wishing bottle...

God loves everyone of us, NO matter what we did...

Including ME and YOU.

If you're reading this blog,

I ask God to bless you, AND your family...

♥ вавч

都是你

来到这里我才发现，
我心里有很大部分装的都是你...

闭上眼，感觉到你的痛...
想到你的一切...
你的以后...
所有结局...
我眼泪就会不自禁的流下...

心会痛...
因为我心里写满你的名字...
他说他会让我的愿望实现的...
唯一的条件是，
他要按照他的时间来完成...

其实我发现，
我是爱你的...
因为心房还是被你霸占了...
只是和以前不一样...

没出息的我...
赢不了潜意识...



但你要记得...
我和你不同，
因为我是基督徒...

♥ вавч

My Camp Life #1

Everything was cool.
The people here are awesome~
And our bedroom has 3 air conditioners... LOL

I cried twice...
Something touched me inside my heart.
I never knew our world is becoming like this...
The world will end because of our own mankind's fault.

But I still believe in miracles...
And it's a pity if you guys don't believe in what I believed in...
There's a God in this world you know...
And He loves you,
no matter WHO you are...

You can forget everything but not this...
Always remember... =]

♥ вавч

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总在你身边守护...

不让你有一丝委屈...

真正爱你的人，

不会说爱你的话...

但会做许多爱你的事...

(●̮̮̃•̃) (●̮̮̃•̃)

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爱已被现实腐蚀，

再美也是过去...

过去再美，

终究是过去...

但要爱就爱到底，

不轻言放弃...

爱了`伤了`哭了`痛了`累了`心碎了

告诉自己，痛过就好了...

下一个一定会更好~

勇敢的爱吧...

也许平凡就是幸福...

也许自然就是完美...

也许简单就是快乐...

也许单身就是自由...

也许寂寞，不是我の结局~ 

【珍惜一切就算没有拥有】

♥ вавч

相反の我

人开心了，
反而没什么感人的东西写了... ==
刻骨铭心的事，
突然之间变得好像没关系了...

手指在前几天前，
终于有了新的戒指~
头发短了，
也似乎很多人喜欢~
牙套脱了，
好像笑容多了~
东西不管有回忆没有回忆，
都换过到完了~

时间对我好好...
虽然改变不了事实，
但它比我想象中还要需要它...

那天突然被提醒一些往事...
虽然以前3次4次都是我开口不要的...
但是我敢说，
我爱你比较多...
离开你，有一定的理由...

第一个是错误，

第二个是功课，

第三个或许是永远...

所以，

我很期待 Mr.3... xD

我看我有病~ >x<

♥ вавч